I’m an anigma…I discovered this, at a very young age. Very self-reflective & brutally honest with myself…if not always with others. Not to say that I would LIE to others; but, I definitely would (and still do), hold back any personal info or insights…if I don’t think it’s any of their business, or it’s not pertinent…or, if the person in question is an asshole.

I find words to be both (at once), an insufferable obstacle…as well as, an incomprehensible fascination. Language… spoken & written…each  -seperately & together- represent(s) the core of human advancement AND extinction. Never, really (originally), about relaying or communi- cating a feeling, need, idea, discovery or warning/threat; but, rather CONCEALING a feeling, need, idea, discovery, warning/threat. Now, that’s not to include or be mistaken for “marks” or “symbols”, used to designate specific, survival type information…like marking a trail used for hunting, for example. That is a completely different communication  animal, than the creation of “words. Symbols can  convey/share an important message to others & stimulate our brains into a state of curiosity…which leads to learning, discovery, common sense, survival. But, words… they were created, for the purpose of secrecy and deception; to keep certain information & ideas, from becoming  “common knowledge”… which leads to confusion, suspicion, resentment, division, war, extinction. So…

Why, “She’s SO nice…” ?

Well, it’s one of those phrases that I’ve heard, over the years, used to describe me…but, not always in a “genuine” sense of the phrase. It’s also (often), used by manipulative or narcissistic people; to describe someone (me),  who They see as  “compliant”…until they’re not.

That’s where most people   go wrong, with me. I am a fairly easy-going person & I don’t concern myself with what someone else says or does, if it’s not my business and/or nobody is being hurt…especially not a vulnerable  human.

However…if pushed into it, by other humans’ actions or behaviors…I can become a very scary person. For instance, if someone makes a snide remark to/about me…I could not care less. Your opinion of me, is none of my business nor concern;  if something about Me, bothers You… that’s Your baggage, not Mine. I’m good with Me.      However, if I see or hear someone trying to bully or intimidate a smaller, weaker or more vulnerable soul…it is ON! I will lock on that bully with laser focus & (depending on the situation), handle it in one of many ways;  ranging from a brutal  reality check scolding… to an attitude-adjusting, cosmic-karma ass whoopin (in the past😬).

I can be helpful, patient,  understanding, accepting and  appreciative…OR, I can be Their worst nitemare. Sometimes, its both. Sometimes, calling someone out on their toxic, manipulative behavior…in that moment…can help them see another perspective & make the effort to change destructive behaviors.  Not usually… but, sometimes.

And, really, in the end… “She’s SO nice” is just a grouping of marks which,  humans agreed, would represent sounds that  convey a very interpretive message… and it can be a positive message or a negative message. It’s all about intention, perception and reception; as for me, I’ve got no interest in wasting time on mixed messages.